With blankness staring back at me
And gleaming from the pages
I feel the fear of apathy
Gripping me, pushing me on top of everything
In the corner with a view
I turn off the fluorescent tubes

This is the bomb that I've been waiting for
Living for
You've finally lit the fuse that's in my head
Yes, you've finally lit the fuse that's in my head

With nothingness on top of me
Bleeding from my folder
Only you can stop the emptiness
Don't let it take me over

I've been sinking now
Further into nothing
I've been waiting long
Longer than for something

Chem6a

Nothing but a chemical in my head
It's nothing but laziness
'Cause I don't wanna read the book
I'll watch the movie
'Cause it's not me
I'm just like everybody else my age

I think I'd rather play around
And I think I'd rather watch tv
'Cause I don't wanna face my fears
I'll watch the movie
'Cause it's not me
I'm just like everybody else

Because I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna see this now
It's all wrong but it's allright
I don't wanna be here
I don't wanna study now
It's all wrong but it's allright

I don't know what love is
And I don't know who I am
And if I ever wanna find out
I'll watch the movie
'Cause it's not me
I'm just like everybody else my age

I don't wanna change the world
And I don't wanna be someone
And I don't wanna write the book
I'll make the movie
'Cause it's not me
I'm just like everybody else

Underwater

It's in her head
It's in her mind
She can't believe it
Can't believe she's running
Out of time

And any hold
That she can find
Something to lean on
Everybody fails her
Half the time

Nothing to be
She's already been
Plenty of time

Lights her candle
Six A.M.
Starting a new one
Everyone new one hits her
Just the same

Just like clockwork
She climbs down
Into her bottle
No one down there cares
To know her name

She's underwater
Nowhere now
Underwater upside down
The rising tide won't
Find her now
She's lost and found
Underwater

She's underwater
But she won't drown
She can't believe it
And everyone she meets
Feel just the same

It takes all day
To get tonight
What makes the sunset
And what makes it go back
To where it came

She's underwater
Nowhere now
She's underwater
Upside down
The rising tide won't
Find her now
She's lost and found
Now she's upside down
Now she's six feet down
Underwater

Edge of My Seat

Nothing more
That there's nothing more

Nothing here's the same
It's all a dream
Life on a movie screen
And I'm sitting on the
Edge of my seat

I can't tell what happens next
Just what I've seen
Don't know what it means
But I'm holding on the
Edge of my seat

I can't forget your name
Forget your name
Yeah, I can't forget you
Now I know
I can't forget you girl

I promise
Sit back, buckle in
And hold on tight
A roller coaster ride
And I'm holding on the
Edge of my seat

And I don't know for sure
'Cause I just landed
On your shore
But I think you've got nothing
But another thing comin'
If you think there's nothing more
That there's nothing more

Home

It's a long way from Miami to LA
It's a longer way from yesterday
To where I am today

It's a long way from my thoughts
To what I'll say
It's a long, long way from paradise
To where I am today

All that's in my head
Is in Your hands

It's a long way from
The moon up to the sun
It's a longer ahead of me
The road that I've begun

Stop to think of all the
Time I've lost
Start to think of all the
Bridges that I've burned
That must be crossed

Over, over, over
Take me over

I've been poison
I've been rain
I've been fooled again

I've seen ashes
Shine like chrome
Someday I'll see home

Home, home

I can see the stars
From way down here
But I can't fall asleep
Behind the wheel

It's a long way from the
Shadows in my cave
Up to Your reality to
Watch the sunlight taking over

Might Have Ben Hur

Everything I know
Tells me she's everything
That I could hope for
Everything I know
Tells me I can't let her
Walk away

I took my time to find the words
I hoped she'd feel the same

'Cause I want someone to
Share my smile
To share the pain
To be there when the sea
Turns gray

To share the joy
For better or worse

And I thought that it
Might have been her

Wonder if she knows
The way I saw her sould
Light up my life
Wonder if she knows
Of the pain I feel tonight

Concrete Girl

Bleeding thoughts
Cracking boulder
Don't fall over
Fake your laughter
Burn the tear
Sing it louder,
Twist and shout

Way up here
We stand on shoulders
Growing colder
Laugh or cry
I won't mind
Sing it louder,
Twist and shout

Immovable shadows
Concrete girl
They'll rock your world
To nothing
And they're swimming
Around again, again
And they're swimming
Around again, again
And they're swimming
Around the concrete girl

Catch your breath
Like four leaf clover
Hand it over

Scream to no one
Take your time
Sing it louder,
Twist and shout

Nothing to run from
Is worse than something
And all your fears
Of nothing
And they're swimming around
Again, again
And they're swimming around
The concrete girl

Concrete girl
Don't fall down
In this broken world
Around you
Concrete girl
Don't fall down
Don't fall down
My cocnrete girl

Don't stop thinking
Don't stop feeling

One step away
From where we were
And one step back
To nothing
And we're standing on top
Of our hopes and fears
And we're fighting for words now
Concrete girl
And we're swimming around
Again, again
And we're swimming around now
Concrete girl

Life and Love and Why

Life and love and why
Child, adult, then die
All of your hoping
And all of your searching
For what?
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Take away from me
This monstrosity
'Cause my futile thinking's
Not gonna solve nothing tonight
Ask me for what am I living
Or what gives me strength
That I'm willing to die for

Could it be this
Could this be bliss
Could it be all that
I ever had missed
Could it be true
Can life be new
And can I be used
Can I be used

Give me a reason
For life and for death
A reason for drowning
While I hold my breath
Something to laugh at
A reason to cry
With everyone hopeless
And hoping for something
To hope for
Yeah, with something to hope for

COuld it be true
Can life be new
Could it be all that I am
Is in You
Could it be this
Could it be bliss
Can it be You
Can it be You

You

There's always something
In the way
There's always something
Getting through
But it's not me
it's You

Sometime's ignorance
Rings true
But hope is not in
What I know
Not in me
It's in You

It's all I know

And I find peace
When I'm confused
I find hope when
I'm let down
Not in me
But in You

I hope to lose myself
For good
I hope to find it in the end
Not in me
It's You
It's all I know

Ode to Chin

What's your direction
Tell me what's wrong
Tell me what's right

What's your direction
Think about somebody else
For the night

Life's more than girls
God's more than words
You're more than this

So what's your direction
And where are you now

Grow, grow where you are
Anchor your roots underneath
Doubt your doubts
And believe your beliefs

What's your direction
What matters most is what
You do now

What's your direction
All that you've been
Makes who you are now

'Cause I've been ashamed
I've been a fool
You know I've backed down

When I lose direction
I pray to be found

Don't Be There

Don't be there
'Cause I'm on my way

And I'm already gone over
And I'm on my way

And I can't recall myself
How I went down
Did I get shot
Or shoot myself

I'm down here
And you're way up there

But that doesn't hurt badly
But it stings right here

And I won't pretend there's
Nothing there
You be around and I'll be square
Don't be alarmed if I'm not there
You be around and I'll be square

If you're a rose
Then I'm the thorn
That's in your side

And does it hurt badly
'Cause it burns right here

I'd like to say hello
I'd like to say I care
I'd like to let you know
That nothing here's the same with me
Nothing here's the same

Don't be around
Don't be there